YOU & ME & HELL: TRACKLIST, CREDITS & LYRICS
TRACKLIST
- Adapter
- You & Me & Hell
- Tour Trauma
- Loner
- Jelly
- Simple Lie
- Medicine Man
- Tailpipe
- T.V. & J. Salvi
- Deranged
- Peace Sister
- Invitation to Your Ball (Shower Song)
- Wonder Woman
- 2x4
CREDITS
vocals, guitar, piano, organ - ramona silver. guitar, slide and recorder loop and other crazy sounds - dan hallas. bass, percussion - stephen flynn. drums, percussion - jim weston. produced by dan hallas and ramona silver. executive producer - dan russell. recorded and mixed by dan hallas at dls mobile in the jobarn, rockland, ma, 7/21-8/12/95. second engineer - darron burke. executive producers - chuck long, harold hallas and burke thomas. mastered at mortal sound, charlestown, ma. art design and layout by dan hallas and ramona silver. photos by suzanne weston. mr. orange's makeup by stephen flynn. all songs written by ramona silver, copyright 1995, Tootsie Music and Recon Music/ASCAP, all rights reserved. [Originally released on Fingerprint Records Inc.]. thanks to my family, friends and fingerprint.
LYRICS
1. ADAPTER
Every time I sit down to do this I feel a little like I’m operating
Put the plug into the adapter, adapting my world with a little sound
And I finally found your voice
It don’t mean a thing without an attitude
Dare me to get up and over, tie your shoes
Every time I sit down to do this I feel a little like I’m lying again
Stick my head into somebody else’s, adapting my world with a little smile
And I finally found a voice
It don’t mean a thing, no it don’t mean a thing without an attitude
Dare me to roll over, tell you why I’m blue
See I’ve got this, I know it (know it)
I should be obliged to grow it (grow it)
Walk it around, see how it feels
Make it my own, doo doo doo doo
No, no attitude
It don’t mean a thing without an attitude
No, no attitude
Dare me to come over there and try your shoes
2. YOU & ME & HELL
Who taught you to hate me
What did their words say?
Can I rearrange them, show you that I can mend?
Rain is blanking out the sky
Locking me inside my eyes
Keeps me in my secrets
Just you & me & hell
I threw something at you
You played it like you made it
My boy intercepted, love like oxygen
All the verses in your control
And all the world will never know
You’ve been up inside of me
I can’t break from your hell
You drain me from energy
Please break me so I’ll be free
I can’t let my rivers run
My head’s up against the sun
Rain it blankets out the sky
It locks me inside my eyes
Keeps me in my secrets
Just you & me & hell
3. TOUR TRAUMA
I visit your garden to be where you’ve been
I hear where you’ve watered, I play and pretend
When I’m alone (with you, with you), when I’m alone (with you)
Do you think of hearing my voice in your head
Imagine I’m lying right there in your bed
When you’re alone (with you, with you), when you’re alone (with you)
You have the feelings I do every once and awhile
But you paint the ceilings light blue so I can see for miles
Why the truth comes in lies when you’re alone
Sandy man, you little jam, you’re the ram that makes me what I am
Love your tots and tell the truth
Truth in knots I’ll give to you
When we’re alone (with you, with you), when we’re alone (with you)
You have the feelings I want even when things aren’t right
But you color my glasses dark blue, turning the day to night
So that we can play amongst the stars
When we’re alone (when we’re alone), when we’re alone (when we’re alone)
4. LONER
She sits in parking lots watching the cars past
These lunch breaks are lonely talks with herself
She sleeps in bathroom stalls breathing the tile’s cold
Dreaming of a boy’s smile, feeling dreams getting old
It’s a buck and it sucks to need it
It’s a dream, not enough time to feed it
Sometimes at lunch she can hear the music play
Or the sweet soul of another birdie who is gay
Then she looks up, paint brushes upside-down
Each girl must dry tears out of her eyes
It’s a buck and it sucks to need it
It’s a dream, not enough time to feed it
5. JELLY
I’ve got a problem, a great big problem
I think I’ve fallen in love
You did it to me, you always see through me
I can’t say I’ve had enough
All the signs are there, jelly in the hair
What are you saying, you are always complaining
Still I think your morals are good
I can’t believe it, you’ve not yet received it
Even though you know that you should
Inside my small mind is just the waiting kind
What’s the use of fear?
It never brings me nearer to the fact of you
The fact of you, defacto
6. SIMPLE LIE
There is no simple lie
Either with or without pain
There is no target tide to beat
You’ll always run against the grain
It’s just another form of rain
There is no easy tie to me
I’ll lift you up to let you down
But if you stay alive with me
I guarantee I’ll stick around
Maybe wondering when we’ll meet the ground
I had this idea I could do something with what I was given
I had this idea but it stayed in my head until I met you and lit it
Babe, no, you don’t need to lie to me
We’re born into the same storm
And when you finally lie with me
And feel the weather in our bones
We’ll be on our way back home
7. MEDICINE MAN
Can you paint the ball you’re in
Can you purge your soul of sin
Minding all the fluff outside
Making up for it all despite
Seeing you, I can’t explain where it is I jumped this pain
Might I know where you come from
How you managed to burn the sun
Growing up is never easy
Going through a life you’re leaving
But I aint your medicine man
No I aint your medicine man
What you know and what you don’t
Can’t hurt until it floats
Make your bet, then make your will
Make sure you leave an open windowsill
Can’t help my attitude
Cause I can’t help I feel I loose
When you walk the hallways in your big caboose
When you walk your head into your own damn noose
But I aint your medicine man
No I aint your medicine man
You can paint the ball you’re in
I’ve seen you purge
Still mind all the fluff outside
But you can make up for all of it despite
When I am your medicine
No I aint your medicine man
8. TAILPIPE
Don’t fix the tailpipe on the car, my love
It won’t get us very far
We’ll need more gas
And brand new brakes, my love
And we will still get where we want
So don’t fix the tailpipe on the car
It’s not about all this perfection (all this perfection)
It’s not about all that I want (although I want a lot)
You still can’t see
You rip apart all that I dream and still I fly
Don’t do the dishes in the sink, my love
Just let them pile up to the sky
We’ll dance around them
And let them fall and then we’ll eat our food off of the floor
Don’t really matter anymore
Sometimes I think you just can’t tell (you just can’t tell)
Probably because I put you through (enormous hell)
Can only say, I love you, hope you love me anyhow and way
Don’t fix that damn tailpipe, my love
Can only say so many times
It’s just a fake
We’ll new brakes, my love
And still the same, get where we want
So don’t fix the tailpipe on the car
9. T.V. & J. SALVI
I don’t mind if I don’t understand
There’s something bout little girls
I could find it if I had a map through bountiful world of curls
Inside them I live all that I can
Something bout the way they purr
Keep it even in my head
Polish up all my shoes and make it a tap dance
Wonder what she would look like
It won’t matter, there’s beauty, beauty by nightlight
I don’t mind if I don’t understand
There’s something bout little girls
Throw a rock if you can’t feel the breeze
Makes me want to jump off
You can find it in my world
Senses waiting for saviors from overload
And I can find it in my world
Senseless murder and babies
Satans in plaid shirts
I don’t mind if I don’t understand
There’s something bout those girls
I’d be fine if I just had a map
Something bout this world
Wake up, you’re in a nightmare
You’re just watching the TV, feed you and feed
Wake up, you need a nightcap
Sink some poison and that’ll, that’ll be that
10. DERANGED
I, I had it made while I was still a boy
You, you played with shame when I became your toy
Although I’ll fight it, it is on a broken back
You, I think it’s funny you have not changed
You, I think of you and I think deranged
Inside this smallness I can find my own big bomb
Although you think I sold it, it’s in my back yard
You, I think it’s funny you have not changed
You, I sit and stare and still you’re deranged
I’d send a rocket but it’d leave us both behind
I might pretend that I’m alright but you’re just blind
11. PEACE SISTER
We haven’t seen the sun so long braid this beautiful backyard of ours
We haven’t felt the warmth of clouds as they make you run to each other’s arms
We only feel our weathered walls through it all, yeah
Through it all
Quiet it may seem to be in the eyes that gaze from below
But the hell is rumbling underneath all these plans that we’ll never know
Cause it seems your heart is letting go of all you know, yeah
All you know
12. INVITATION TO YOUR BALL
I can see mountains and I can see vales
Given the measure of your skies
I can tell lies, yes baby, I can tell tales
All this so soon you’ll realize
But you haven’t got a chance if you aint learned how to dance
And you haven’t got a chance if you haven’t been to France
No you haven’t got a chance if you’ve got no invitation to the ball
You think you’re tiny but I think you’re tall
All in the size of your eyes
We could mountains or we could do falls
Either way we’re bound to fly
And you have got a chance cause I’ve learned to see you dance
And you have got a chance cause you make up your own France
And you have got a chance cause you gave me an invitation to your ball
I wanna be
I wanna see
I wanna be
I see all
I wanna be
I see all
I, I plan to know all you’ll be
13. WONDER WOMAN
You might think I’m game staring the way I do at your goods
I just can’t get over, perfection’s got you covered from your head to your hooves
I lean on charm and hope the ride will take me to such truth
Then I wake to scars and all the things that keep me writing my book
Still I want…
I, I want wonder woman each and every working day
I forget wonder woman is hiding in the quietest place
My mother’s a horse girl farming her days with the strength of the past
She eases my load whenever I need and never keeps track
She could be...
She could be wonder woman if she chose to feel that way
I wonder how wonder woman gets the nerve to dress every day
She could be, I could be a lovely wonder woman
Each and every working day
I forget wonder woman is hiding in the quietest place
14. 2 x 4
There is a piece of you in me, I find it will not cease to be
I can’t erase the trace you’ve laid across my heart
Though I have moved from first square
I can get stuck, I can’t be there
Though I am proud enough to say I’ve seen new days
I wear a cloak of decency when I choose, if I choose to please
You won’t be hearing from the likes of these if it means play
And when I’m up and on the mend
And you are down and not my friend
You will notice that my face will bend to the sky
You had me made
You wrapped my soul up in some cellophane
Now you keep me bouncing on a 2x4
There is a piece of you in me
I find it will not cease to be
I won’t erase the trace you’ve laid across my heart
You had me made
You wrapped my soul up in some cellophane
Now you keep me bouncing on a 2x4